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This is an artistic compendium of strange and silly- the knowledge is a bit more expensive down here, but between the black rats, cow, and my cook-mule's heavy grinder, much sausage can be made. The Book sees you reading this, is upset by your lack of hypercolor clothing...
And is going to rock your face!!

Present Cycle of Chronology
Nov. 29th, 2011 @ 10:47 pm Hello again.
I feel a bit of a need to write. Since it seems like this forum is more broadly available for just posting out a persons thoughts instead of their happenings I think it will do me some good. 2011 has been a year of upgrades. I've done a lot of things, and sought to improve myself, my well being, and my life as a kind of existential exercise in what I am capable of. I've come a long way too.

I'm not knocking it. There is one improvement though, that is a serious sticking point for me. Weightloss. I find it mutually silly, and also very disheartening. I've dropped from a weight of 235lbs (106.5kg) to 195lbs (88.5kg). I started in March and the bulk of this weight was off by September- where I weighed 206. Like I said, I'm not knocking it. I've dropped enough weight to be able to run again (which I do a lot) and to be able to clip my toe nails (which not being able to do easily was the epiphany moment that got me started losing the weight).

But... there is an ancient history that goes back a decade ago when I started putting on the weight. The short version is that I weighed nearly 180lbs. and I was a lean, muscular dude who could go all day, and all night and not even think about it- but I could NOT seem to bulk up. I plateau'd. My exercise regimen was intense, but involved running, stairs, climbing, and swimming mostly- and I burned foods off almost as fast as I ate them as a result. So, conveniently, when I was ordered to stop going to the gym by a psychotic girlfriend who was convinced I'd meet someone better than her there, I quietly resolved that I would simply gain 10 lbs of fat then go back anyway.

But I never did.

Until now... and so my arbitrary target weightloss, as you may have mentally crunched the numbers for already, was 190. Which I'm 5lbs from... and which I have been 7-5 lbs from now for all of November. It's retarded to be upset but I just get so frustrated. I'm eating a lowered number of calories, I'm exercising like mad, I'm in great shape (I ran 7.5 miles yesterday- for fun), and I'm even pushing for high protein, low carbohydrate foods... and I just seem to not get anywhere.

Anyways, I just needed to get that off my chest. No one but my wife has even made the effort to be concerned with how it's going, or doing it along with me. And I really needed to just put it out there to read that I'm not crazy... er.
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"The Furry Fury!!", Izzy
Feb. 27th, 2011 @ 09:05 pm Plans moving up and down, east and west...
So, after announcing my thoughts that moving out west would be the best plan I was told that I'm getting promoted. Which is great, because I intend to use the extra money to move out of this state. It's also nice to know that the utter hell I've been in is rewarded by recieving the promotion that I should have had months ago, without any of the bad crap that would have come along with it if I had been given it back then.

In other news, this weekend we went up to visit my in-laws. My mother-in-law is moving back to Colorado, and selling her house. As a consequence she needed/wanted to get rid of a lot her things. So we now have a new Vaccuum, pillows, cooking pots, hangers, toolbox, vice grips, weed whacker, and so forth. The items we could not take back with us are being driven down to us in a week or so. It was a rather bitter sweet exchange as her moving to Colorado seems to be a kind of resignation for her. Yet, when you know the whole history, it's what she's wanted to do for over a decade.

We stayed with my father-in-laws afterward. The rest of the weekend we had some rather fantastic meals and great conversations about moving and everything that's been happening. Rachael and I are also working on setting aside Tuesday afternoons for ourselves. Overall it was really awesome.
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"The Furry Fury!!", Izzy
Feb. 22nd, 2011 @ 06:58 pm In spite of my puppy throwing his toy dragon at me...
I'm going to write out what's up. Rachael and I have reached a decision, we have to move. We have to move to a place that has better job opportunities, and where we're paying less taxes because of corrupt dickwads. After a LOT of serious discussion it was down to a choice between Raleigh, North Carolina and Seattle, Washington. After more discussion and research, about not only jobs but culture and people it seems like Seattle is the better of the two choices.

I wish that I could see this decision as only beneficial, but like all big decisions there are things that aren't pleasant. Leaving behind family and friends won't be fun. Finding the funding to move, a place to live, and whiddling down possessions to make the trip easier are all issues I see. I also, though I know they will say nice things to my face, the fact is that it's going to be really rough on my mom and dad because I'm their only kid. While I'm here I'm an hour or so away it gives them both the freedom to visit, but out there it wont be so, and when that finally hits it will be very unpleasant.

I have no idea about how long it will take to do this. Or even if I can in a reasonable time frame, but I think this is what I should focus my goals on.
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The other white meat
Mar. 4th, 2010 @ 03:31 am Long night.
Magic Mirror: amusedamused
It's been almost a year since my last post. I figured I'd go ahead and say something just to keep up the appearance that my journal is still alive... which it really isn't I'm sad to say. I love it, and it's got a damn important part of my history in here. It's just not all that reasonable to keep up with these days.

My Game Group, that effort I started in an attempt to make friends, now has 130 members. Tonight we had a meeting of 21 show. I'm working on making committees of assistant organizers with 14 volunteers to help things function and to improve the quality of our gatherings.

I still work in IT. It's alright, but there are stresses that I won't discuss in a public forum. The gliders are happy, bouncy and okay- though they seem to have developed a slight sense of agoraphobia- they do seem to have trouble coping with the world when they are out of their cage.

It's been a very robust year for me since my last posting. A lot of things have happened that were both scary, and wonderful too. Still happily married to the woman of my dreams, though she might not feel that way all the time. I'm also coming to terms with working to become a great leader and to do things decisively.

Signing off.
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The other white meat
Jan. 26th, 2009 @ 05:16 pm Thoughts from this morning
I should do a journal entry. I need to be a little bit more Ferry Corsten and a little less Blue October. Perhaps the reason authors become better with time is that they must retreat in to their fantasies to escape their bitter cold realities. I should definitely mention that the Cheese tray at xmas was really good. Holy crap, where do I begin a journal entry? I haven't written anything of substance since November.

The xmas parties, and subsequent kung-fu new years party have gone unheralded. I haven't mentioned going up to Chicago 2 weekends in a row- once for shopping and the other for Voltaire. I haven't brought up Fallout 3 and Fable 2 or discussed all of the things that the game group has been working on. There is simply SO MUCH stuff that I haven't covered any of it because I seem to swing from one major event to the next with very little down time.
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Dec. 16th, 2008 @ 07:26 pm Seriously!!
Does Fantasy Flight Games have something against me personally?!! WTF?! WHY, of all the things to do, would you unveil a BRILLIANT boardgame idea like Android, and Red November, and then, as if that WASN'T ENOUGH, they decide to do a REVAMP of my all-time favorite game Cosmic Encounter, and one of the best quest based boardgames ever made, Talisman- all around or after Thanksgiving!! I didn't have enough time to add ANY of those to my xmas list, and I definately don't have the cash to go out and drop nearly $200 for all of them. Gyah! I'm mutually happy about this turn of events and upset all at the same time.

... k, breathing again now...
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Dalek Expressionism
Nov. 12th, 2008 @ 01:10 am chocolate milk soothes the wounded heart.
A random drawing request.

An angry anthro chipmunk weilding a pair of nunchucks and leaping through a dead fall of space on top of a skate board.

P.S. please make sure you give him a small goatee.
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Concernicus Archmage
Nov. 9th, 2008 @ 11:22 pm Xmas List 2008
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The other white meat
Sep. 23rd, 2008 @ 08:31 pm Primordial Me.
Magic Mirror: angrylinear non-sequitur
It is said that you do not really understand something unless you can explain it to a six year old.

Love happens, and when it does it is unchangable and unalterable. You will intuitively sense that a person is best suited for you before you actually KNOW it.

I don't object to following advice. I object to changing who I am to do so.

All the things you ever did for yourself will be undermined by the things you did for others when you die.

Remember death. Don't stop living until it happens.

Who wouldn't want to be Henry V?

I want revenge.
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Sep. 14th, 2008 @ 10:50 pm Running along...
Magic Mirror: depressedmoody
This weekend was a lot of fun. On Saturday we had a trip up to the Chicagoland area with myself and 7 of my friends. It was a great time, we played 3 games of Laser Tag, and went to Dave and Busters (which is like an adult version of Chucky Cheese). Everyone really enjoyed themselves, and I now know how dangerous my friends are. These f'n people are sharpshooters! Seriously.

Today followed up yesterday with a mini-movie marathon at another friends house where we watched The Last Dragon, The Big Hit, & Kiss, Kiss, Bang, Bang. It was also a great time just sitting around talking about the events of Laser Tag and what's going on in the gaming group. It was wonderful to just spend some time relaxing.

However all of this is currently overshadowed by the large amount of work I need to get done tomorrow. I was faaaar too lazy on Friday and subsequently I need to play catch up, of sorts. My blue-ness is further exacerbated by feeling a touch of burnout with the club. It really is like a second job.

The group is a labor to organize, and can be outright depressing when you pour all this effort in to making events for it that get a small turn out. Additionally monitoring the personalities we have and where conflicts can occur is also a slight chore. There is also a gaming convention coming up and I want us to run events for it, but I seem to be getting no help at all. As a result of the things I have to do for it I'm feeling a bit consumed.

...I suppose that's the result of starting with 3 members and now having 63.
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Jun. 8th, 2008 @ 08:54 pm Distorted Moment from a car ride earlier today.
Magic Mirror: quixoticquixotic
Blind in a way thats only social. I see things and in fleeting moments- the thoughts that they bubbled up are gone like steamed breath. Associating these strange daydreams to concurrent relativity and wondering why they affect me as they do. I am caught, stuck somewhere in the middle, between versions of myself that each have different merits and flaws. On one hand I can look across and wonder if I was sitting in that place what I would say. On the other I can see myself content, but alone, as I skate, attempting to ignore the oppressive wait. Waiting and waiting for someone to extend an invitation, to those things we mutually enjoy. So that I feel that these acquaintances are not merely one sided but reciprocated. I can't seem to see what I am doing wrong, if anything, and even if I could I'm not sure I have the personality to be able to fix it. I am blind.
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May. 31st, 2008 @ 12:13 am Blarg!
I'm lost. Can You figure out the lyrics?

To me parts sound like
we to- move along
we'll (have) trouble

There is a long way to love but I (have) trouble
but I..
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The other white meat
May. 3rd, 2008 @ 12:02 am Today's WTF moment:

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Apr. 20th, 2008 @ 11:13 am Fun with your brain.
The Plain Text Test
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Switch Images
All images from here to the next set are dualistic, can you see both pictures?

Words and Colors Test
Read the image aloud--but rather than reading the words, say the color of the ink that was used to write each word. It's not easy; the written words have a suprisingly strong influence over the actual color.

The Awareness Test
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Feb. 16th, 2008 @ 07:55 pm My favorite short film EVAR.
Dumping Elaine.

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